Friday, April 04, 2008

SO it is April 4, 2008 and I am writing this blog one year after my post. Well not a full year but pretty darn close. Right now I am in Psychology 20 where we are all suppose to be working on a glossary. However I don't feel like doing that till last minute (Sunday night after I get home from work and eat dinner and shower, so prob like 9). I always do thing last minute. They stress me out so much and but I never stop setting my life up that way. Right now In life I have no Challenges. It is a challenge to finish this in three hours because it is due at midnight. But right now that is what I need. Since I left kayaking my whole life has turned around. I was once a responsible athlete/student. I learned to balance it all. But as I grew up and I could not fulfill all attention to the sport I sadly withdrew without knowing it would shatter my life.
Kayaking freed me up a lot of time. I got a job at a store called Triple Flip('Modern Flip Wear for the Flippy Girl'). Basically it was a locally run 'little kids lululemon'. That is how I would describe it to everyone because generally most people in the city havent heard of Triple FLip. It is really a little botique that sells pretty nice clothing for a hefty cost. IT is funny because the owners said that they didnt think it was expensive. They would have bought it for their girls. But that is not fair because their girls all go to highly aclamed private school. of course you are then willings to spend $120 on one outfit for a seven year old. My mom on the other hand is still hesitant on buying me outfits for that much.. and I am 17! SO the kind of people who come into triple flip are pretty obvious. There is the over priovledge kids who yell at their parents and end up with their parents dropping a lot of cash. Then their is the kids who come in and have total control over their parents so they tell them what they want and how many, then their parents too drop a lot of cash. There is also the kids who beg their parents to buy then clothes from triple flip so they can be cool in school and their parents finally giving in and buying it for them, knowing it is out of their means. I dont know.. it is just a weird vibe sometimes when you think about what you are endorsing. Cause I am- I am endorsing things like that because I work there and that is the complete opposite of how I used to be. I used to be against brands against drugs and aganst agnst!
k this is bopring. let me tell you about my psych class. It is so dumb. There is this group of ugly girls with blond hair and money that tease the teacher and try to get away with shit but now cause it is near the report card period it has caught up on them. They never did anywork and now their parent will be so so so so so sad and then they wont get their SUVs. Ugghh they are gross. One of them is very fat and annoying. Today I ran into her in the hallway.
THey is a section of the foyer that everyone stands in and meets up. This is a very important hallways for transport and I needed to get to the other side. This meant through the clusters of groups and dogging the shit covering the floor. There is one point where this ahally way narrows. They for some reason also put the veding machines there. So i was walking on the right saide which is where the pop machines are and there was a group up ahead roughly in the middle/right taking up about a third of the hally way. I didnt want to go all the way to the left to pass them when I at the moment was situated to the right. I figured there was enough room for me to go between the fat chic and the machines. So i went for it- but right as i was about to go past them the stupid hoe backer up so i had to squeeze past her and i hit the machine and bounce back and forth between its flexibilty and her juggly fat arms. IT was terrible and then as i continue walking on in disbelive that shit like this world start out my friday at school. Of course then Fatso and the rest of her pod hushed up and started saying shit. I dont know what they said but I now fear the other side of the classroom which is where a group of her and her other minnions dwell. Hell no i wont talkt to them ever. They are sooooo oannoying. I wish i could take a mental photo. This one guy who shall be called cowboy has this ugly ass tattoo on his under forearm. It says 'carpe diem'. But fuck man- that is some ugly shit. It is over done is gothic style chunky ass lettets. ANd he is so scrawny that it just makes me throw up and doubt the prospect of a tattoo.
Thats it for now... prob unitl next psych class (30 level!!! should be hard. Yeah maybe at home but i dont like typing a lot at my computer upstairs. it feels weird.
tootles!!!!! :) :)

Posted by Mary Lynn at 8:49 AM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

something to make you laugh and remember your childhood

Posted by Mary Lynn at 7:35 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007

Fuck This Shit

i hate my life rifht now.... well
not complelety
i will speak of the happy stuff first
we went to clear water beach on saturday it was nice and hott and i tanned a lot and have beautiful tan lines
on sunday we went to Disney MGM and it deffently was the most magical place on earth. we scared fast passes which made waiting in line a breeze. the coolest thing was the little mermaid show with the fish dancing to under the sea
oh and the indiana jones show was cool but ther lights motors action show was fuking awsume. i want to be a proffesional driver now... maybe that is the sport i have been waiting for

k now to the shitty stuff and sadly today it out numbers my previouse list
i am sick of training.... sick of kayaki ng.... buyt mostly sick of trying hard... im tired of havving no energy and all the pain i put my body though.... im sick of going to these camps and feeling like shit... im sick of hearing that i am just fruastrated and that htis feeling will pass.... i might be done with this sport... or at least competetion wise.

why the fuck copuldnt i find a sport that i am actually good at... one where i would work hard but would also get the rewards that i am entitled to... that doesnt seem to be working with kayaking... i do love to paddle and i love the poeple and the coaches but i dont like how it is all there is in my life and i dont like having to sacrafice other things for it. i never understood why other people just stopped kayaling but now i see... what is sad is that both eric and jezzat discovered at camp last year that they were done... and now it is my turn..
i dont know who to talk to about this,... if i tell mike he will treat me diffrently.... which maybe wouldnt be that bad,
it is also hard cause once im on the water it is just my nature to try hard and that is the opposite of what i feel i should be doing
i have to become friends with my body and start working with it

dont even get me started on technique shit
im too tired to type it anyhow and really want to turn to my bed right now

Posted by Mary Lynn at 5:02 PM

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Florida Training Camp

Im in florida... and i have seemed to forget how much i didnt enjoy it last year.. but it has all come back to me now... i miss hiome which is werid. i have never gotten this hiome sick... the peopl i am living with are crazy and i only like a few... one of them last laughs along to Archie comics ( kirsten) but that is cool... her mom packed her lots of candies so i like her.. she is also so brave. She flips a lot but she always gets back in her boat and doesnt complain.
then there is kristen... i do love her.. and usually we live well together but i can see eachother geting annoyed of eachtoehre pretty fast. HEr shoulder is hurting whcih sucks because she is my k2 partner... but she is faster then me and i hate that...
this year the desire to paddle and work really hard is gone... im trying to but i think that the fa ct that im not having fun at all means that thetre is no escape from training and that is all i can thik about. it is looming no matter what i do.
I miss rachelle an djuliaana and jezzat...i wish i was home but not at school...i dont want to go back to that.
i just basiucally DS a lot against kristen.. she is pretty good at Elite Beat Agents but i domi nate her at MEtroid. I didnt say good bvye to my cat.. and i feel bad. I wish he was here too,
We have a run this afternoon.. pherhaps my first realy test.. hopefully i will be feeling more up to it then. It hasnt been as warm as i expected though i still have burnt my face severeal ti mes... or and my back..
i also hope my dad emails me back soon .. he is coming back to calgary which is cool but i hiope he fi nds a job he really loves... it will be weird to live with him after not doing that for over two years. \i told |Shona i was only going to use her laptop for 5 minutes but i have long overdone that. i want to go lie in bed but it is too short to nap. We are going to go to bed at 9 tonight so iw ont die again tomorrow morning.... it is our first real practice and it will be hard... also mike has his expectations as do i.... i am going to go comment on matts blog so he will send me an email
chow

Posted by Mary Lynn at 10:52 AM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

FLUSHED AwAY

soooooooooooooo funny
the snails are my fav

Posted by Mary Lynn at 3:17 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

CHEESE

Today my mom and shell and i went cheese shopping
i almost wet my pants when i went in the store
there were soooo many cheeses
well it kinda smelled so i have to think twice about workign there
but it was fun
and now i have tons of cheese
we even got the real mozzarella not the lame fake stuff

Posted by Mary Lynn at 7:12 PM

Monday, February 12, 2007

Hamster

I want a pet
my family has gone through a lot
expecially hamsters
we havent had birds or dogs or PIGS
but soon hopefully

none of our masters made it past a year...plus they smell and are gross when they die and you have to dispose of them :(